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July 24, 2011

Music is definitely one of those things that picks you up! Makes you feel like not alone! And makes your mind go around different thoughts!

One song I got from friend is great “Send Me On My Way”. And in combination with ”This is your life”- it picks me up. I don’t deserve it, but still want to share this with you my million visitors : )

This is the song

This is your life

 


Together

June 2, 2011

Another lesson learned. Don’t like them at the first moment at all. But at the end I am thankful that I got one. Feeling like a dummy. Do I really know anything about life or how could I don’t know such a simple thing and act like normally people at age 27 do? But from other point of view, would it be so interesting to be my friend if I were so perfect.. (who knows)

Well, the lesson was about offering. Offering things and activities to be done together.

When you have lived like in a box, doing things you want and when you want, makes situation a bit harder, if you have decided to leave the box. And live life tastefully, colorfully, sense-fully.

How do people know what to do? Does it come from feelings? Or is it just a bigger experience from life? Is it possible to be “life smart” if you are mostly on your own? How to get over the feeling, if you have a sense to do things one way, but inside you know it’s the same way you’ve been doing things all your life?

It is not bad to do things on your own. Especially if you live on your own. It’s not so bad to do them alone even when you are with someone. It’s bad when it makes someone feel not welcomed, unwanted, not worth to do things together.

At the end it points out to thing which will be inside for all the times. Selfishness, egoism, ego, self- interest. If it is clear now. Then how to fight it? It’s probably not so bad to do things not alone. Two heads are smarter. Shared sadness or happiness is double smaller or bigger. It’s more fun. You can have someone who takes pictures of you doing something for the first time. Easier to carry heavy things.

Problem is to let someone in, and yourself out. To wait for other to be able to do things together.

Too many things to think about when you are not alone. Too many to remember not doing wrong again. Or just not to think about how to do right, but to do how heart says?

There are rules for living with others, that’s for sure. Just need to be patient and strong through learning and becoming a better person. Not being alone is hard but worth it.


Self

March 30, 2011

People say- you are born as original, don’t die like a sham;  you live just once, live like you want it; you are unique, do not try to be like others.

For some people it is easy to know what they exactly want. For some..not so. Question- why that’s so? Why it is so damn hard to be who you are? And to know who you want to be?

It’s good to be born special. Cause then you have different problems to solve! (stupid thought, I know)

Well, this weeks special- be special, unique, original- yourself. And find the ways to be like that- on your own!


Learn

March 9, 2011

Learn how to use Skype. Learn to use microwave.  Learn to read, to speak etc. It’s all for good, definitely, no doubt.

Is it possible to learn to let people go? Or is it just time who makes everything in balance again?

It is hard- that’s for sure. And when you let someone go, there is a place for someone new. But does anyone asks if I want that? Why isn’t it possible to get all the good stuff without leaving any behind?

Well, I would say there are two ways in my mind at this moment. One is to fight for the wanted and find new ways to work it out and solve the problem. Do whatever it takes to keep on going with the best ( as one good friend say’s- That’s the spirit).  Or just let time to do what it does, to get used to the situation and just remember the things they were used to be.

So basically it’s not about learning to let someone go. It’s about choosing how you will live your life further, how you will deal with the new situation- sad and  frustrated about all, or trying to find the ways for working things out on a whole new level!


Clear

March 2, 2011

Well, probably  this is one of the days when I feel messed up for all 100%.

From outside we can be like “golden pieces”- intelligent, good looking, calm, unshakable, happy, brave, whatever we or the world want to see.

But in inside- it’s like a real mess. Millions of things are standing in a row to be changed, removed or even deleted. But how? Even if there is an answer. It’s so damn hard. And when you have solved one stupid problem in yourself, seems like thousands are waiting to show themselves shouting out and laughing- “Hey! See me? Do you see me? Here I am! Hey! I’m talking to you. Catch me if you can! Solve me if you can! I’m strong.We all are strong.”

All this together is too much for one person. And I don’t even know what would be better- to wish for a night when you forget everything and wake up like a newborn child with chance to start a new life, or just rent a bunch of instruments to fight with for life which is given.

For this moment I think I would be really happy if I could smile about good things, don’t worry about things which can be changed, and over all- if I could think less or at least about things which are worth to think about. And of course if I could take any kind of action. Less talking.

Peace