June 2, 2011

Another lesson learned. Don’t like them at the first moment at all. But at the end I am thankful that I got one. Feeling like a dummy. Do I really know anything about life or how could I don’t know such a simple thing and act like normally people at age 27 do? But from other point of view, would it be so interesting to be my friend if I were so perfect.. (who knows)

Well, the lesson was about offering. Offering things and activities to be done together.

When you have lived like in a box, doing things you want and when you want, makes situation a bit harder, if you have decided to leave the box. And live life tastefully, colorfully, sense-fully.

How do people know what to do? Does it come from feelings? Or is it just a bigger experience from life? Is it possible to be “life smart” if you are mostly on your own? How to get over the feeling, if you have a sense to do things one way, but inside you know it’s the same way you’ve been doing things all your life?

It is not bad to do things on your own. Especially if you live on your own. It’s not so bad to do them alone even when you are with someone. It’s bad when it makes someone feel not welcomed, unwanted, not worth to do things together.

At the end it points out to thing which will be inside for all the times. Selfishness, egoism, ego, self- interest. If it is clear now. Then how to fight it? It’s probably not so bad to do things not alone. Two heads are smarter. Shared sadness or happiness is double smaller or bigger. It’s more fun. You can have someone who takes pictures of you doing something for the first time. Easier to carry heavy things.

Problem is to let someone in, and yourself out. To wait for other to be able to do things together.

Too many things to think about when you are not alone. Too many to remember not doing wrong again. Or just not to think about how to do right, but to do how heart says?

There are rules for living with others, that’s for sure. Just need to be patient and strong through learning and becoming a better person. Not being alone is hard but worth it.